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[SPN Fic Rec]: "Smart People Who Do Dumb Things" by candle_beck

TITLE: Smart People Who Do Dumb Things (fic on AO3)
AUTHOR: candle_beck
AUTHOR'S LJ NAME: [info]candle_beck, author's AO3
FANDOM: Supernatural
PAIRING: Sam/Dean
OTHER PAIRINGS: mentions of Sam/OFC, Dean/OFC
GENRES: Slash, First Time, Angst, Slow Burn
WARNINGS: Sibling Incest (Wincest), language, m/m sex *kiss when Sam is 14*
CONTAINS: wee!Sam, hurt!Sam, Impala, pining, denial, frustration, tension *hurt!Sam: broken rips, kissing, necking, making out in the Impala, hand job*
RATING: R
TIME FRAME: no particular season, no spoilers, written in 2009
WORDS: approx 14,266
SUMMARY: I shouldn't have pushed, but you shouldn't have said no. (Given by the author.)
NOTES: Dean's POV

Excerpt:
"I was always gonna come home, man, just, just calm down. I, uh, I lost track of time. I might have fallen asleep."

Dean shook his head, stupefied and knowing he shouldn't be: all the clues were there but he didn't want to put them together. It felt like a protective measure, his mind shielding him.

"Fell asleep where?" Dean demanded.

The daylight was growing on Sam's face, making him look flushed. The corners of his mouth twitched restlessly, and then Sam told him with excitement buzzing all through him:

"Her bed, dude. I, we, I did it finally."

Sam let the grin break on his face again, and it sent a wave of red washing down over Dean's vision. He was going to punch Sam just so he wouldn't have to fucking look at it anymore, or claw his own eyes out, something.

"But you're gay," Dean said, and was immediately aghast. He certainly hadn't meant for that to be his first accusation.

Sam blinked at him, purely confounded with his mouth hanging open a little and making him look radically young. "What?"

"You're-" and thank god Dean managed to catch himself, biting down hard on his tongue. He and Sam stared at each other for a few excruciating seconds.

Only very rarely did Dean allow himself to think about that time Sam had come home drunk and kissed him. Usually only when he was drunk himself, if he wanted to be honest about it, but it hardly mattered--he'd explained it away long ago. Sam was gay and being a gay teenager trapped in truckstop America probably fucked a person up, especially when your dad was Dad, and Sam had been wasted so naturally he had done something stupid, acted out, and there wasn't anything wrong with that. It was all totally understandable.

But Sam was looking at him like he was speaking in tongues, eyebrows climbing high. He said, "Why would you think-" and then it visibly clicked into place for him and he cut himself off, drew in a sharp breath.

"What, because I kissed you?" Sam said, and Dean flinched with his whole body. They were three miles from their closest neighbor and he still wanted to tell Sam to keep his goddam voice down. Better yet, just shut up entirely.

Sam was doing something very like smiling, shaking his head with a look that said Dean was too dimwitted to live.

"That wasn't because you're a guy, Dean."

WHY I LIKE THAT FIC:
You guys, this is probably one of the most beautiful Wincest fics I've ever had the pleasure to read. OMG! Really, all the feels here, Dean's angst and denial, Sam's anger and frustration, it's all so gripping, harsh, intense, and it feels so damn real. It really reads like a possible pre-series scenario that could easily be canon.

It's a vingette fic told from Dean's POV, spanning the time from when Sam is 14 and being drunk for the first time to after Stanford, when he is in his early twenties and back on the road again with Dean. When Sam is 14 and drunk, he makes a pass at Dean and kisses him, but Dean, shocked and terrified, shoves him away. Over the years, Sam tries again and again to make Dean realize, to make him come to terms with his own feelings, all the while getting more and more frustrated by Dean's denial. Sam is so great in this. So is Dean. Both of them are. It's beautifully written. A must-read for every Wincest shipper out there.

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